.:. Profile .:.
BS. Computer Science Student at Baguio. Likes web designing, 3D modeling, photo
editing and stargazing...
Likes spending the night in front of his PC while sipping his hot mocha coffee.
Likes to be alone in his room so he can sing his songs, play his guitar and recite
his poems. Likes taking pictures while strolling around the city of pines alone.
Birthday - D-Day
.:. Favorites .:.
*Songs - Classical (strauss and sort), music by the Beatles, Coldplay
Mew, Travis, Sigur Ros, Oasis, Radiohead, Eraserheads, enya, Switchfoot
*Movies - K_Pax, Forrest Gump, Contact, My Sassy Girl, Far and Away, Disney
Movies, Sunshine, Monster House,Apocalypse Now, 3-Iron(Bin-Jip),Shrek movies
*Favorite Books(s):The Yin Yang of Programming, Bible, Quran, What the Buddha
Taught (Walpola Rahula) . Kiss of the Spiderwoman (a very gay book), Karaoke Song
Playlist, Beyond Good and Evil (Friedrich Nietzsche), Crime and Punishment (Fyodor
Dostoevsky), The Final Theory (Mark McCutcheon), God's Debris (Scott Adams), 40 Days
with the Poor (Frank Padilla), Piano for Dummies, Idiot's Guide for Dating, How to
draw a woman's body, Idiot's Guide for Verbal Self-Defense. Ilocano Survival Book,
Paolo Coelho Books. Harry Potter Books, Eve's Diary, Still have many books to
read...
*Favorite Pet(s):Dog and Cat lalo na
pagmagkasama sila
*Favorite Color: Blue and orange
*Favorite Quote/s: if p then q
Posts Archive
Saturday, October 01, 2005
.:. Pure
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The last alcohol i drank was on my class on STS at UP Diliman last summer class. I emptied a red horse beer i bought at philcoa before entering the class of 170 students. I wasnt really feeling good that day, i mean emotionally.. 4 months 2nd sem on my third year, drinking became a way to escape such drags and "melancholy"( now i can use it). I wasnt even active in YA that sem and all i wanted was to be alone and listen to the songs of sugarfree and radiohead..or .anything that would make the feeling hurt more. There was no news about friends and all i did was to gather some of my few closer friends and that was the time we made a couple of songs and videos. I kept myself busier, academically... and i read a lot of books about life, ironically, all of them just made me feel more empty... i know, my words are vague...so just bare with me...
i wasnt even aware of anything those times... but when the sem ended, i was surprised to get lots of 1 grade, the highest among my GWA grades...
No, its not of being bitter, i just used those to make myself more of a poetic person, and most of my works are based on feelings of being alone. Im a person that cant write professionally, but if the feeling got me, i can compose a number of songs and poems without using any references..
those times, i wasnt aware of the 100% program of YA and 1 that captured my attention was the 0% alcohol thing... Obviously, i was strucked... i just wanted a normal life with no such commitments, and i believed that it wouldnt hurt so much... The world turned out unexpectedly... As today, with such burden still with me, im trying the best i can to promote clean fun. I once attented to my other orgs "initiation" night,... the night's main focus was drinking the emper mixed with the juice.. I dont know exactly the recipe because i tried my best to reject the offers. After almost 2 hours of everyone drinking from the mix filled container... The house was at rage...... lots of crying and revelations and it was messy on the floor... some kept on calming the others...i couldnt sleep because i didnt think that it was safe for them to be left just roaming around. the venue was a 4 floor apartmnent and the stairs were very steep...
i realized that not everyone was a calm drinker as me.
Maybe,the only thing the program wanted to pursue is to promote a different kind of socialiation..not the usual make yourself tired by drinking and talking then sleep way... but more on knowing each other wide awake and not while on the blissful planet of Mike (who is mike, I don’t know either..just couldnt think of a better expression.. just ignore it anyway),...as more "socializations" that i attended, and insisted myself not to drink, the more i realized how more comfortable to be with others not taking any responsibilty or sort and how calm to converse with a person that talks clearly...
penned my thoughts
at [1:23 PM]
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